May I be so bold as to call my moment last night an epiphany? Luckily no one is here to oppose so I will :) I have lost all of my motivation to write. Rewriting is hard. It's not as much of a whole new world unfolding as making variations on a world that I have already come to love. That means I'm losing aspects of my world and putting in new aspects and I started to not even recognize my world anymore. I was trying to please everyone that would ever read my book and forgot about me. I know that sounds selfish but this whole process started in order to tell a story but mostly because I love to write. And I had forgotten that. I was too encompassed by the need to find an agent and get published and although that would be nice, that is not my main goal. I want to write an excellent story. So I'm on my way back to do what I love :) Wish me luck!!
