Yesterday was a low. Probably the lowest point I have had since I have started on this journey. I got some bad news and was sure it was the end. The end of my writing "career". I was wondering what it was for. I spent tons of time away from my son and for what?
I am a spiritual person and I know that I can speak to God through prayer and I know that he will answer me. So I prayed. And what I wanted was an answer. I wanted to know what to do. I wanted him to make the decision for me. The answer I got was I already knew I was doing what I was supposed to do. It didn't mean that I don't have to step it up as a mother and wife. But I also knew that I need to step it up as a writer. I don't know what is going to happen to my writing but the lessons I am learning through this process are irreplaceable. I know I am a stronger person, a better person, dare I say even a better mother.
I think that we have lows in order to appreciate the highs and yesterday will definitely be a day I remember in order to be entirely grateful for any wonderful day I recieve :)